Girl smoker since age 14.?

i am currently 22. i got to smoking at 14. more like a closet smoker. i started smoking just 2 cigs per day, thinking i would lose weight. i was already thin and STUPID. my habit got me to almost a pack a day n then to 2packs a day. im no longer a closet smoker, i smoke outside. i want to quit my dirty habit. nicotene patches are a farce. its hard to quit. i also dont like the few judgmental guys who think im probably of a bad upbringing and lack character. any hard core smokers who quit? please help.thank you